I am feeling pretty ridiculous. This morning Andrew woke me up and told me he wanted to take me to the Water St. Cafe for breakfast. (It is our anniversary, and we both took the day off!) So we got up and went! I was looking forward for a wonderful morning with Andrew.
Neither of us had ever been to the Water St. Cafe so we were excited for a new adventure. We got there and sat ourselves. Our waitress came out and took our drink orders... OJ... of course! As we were waiting the phone rang and the lady who took our order gave it to the owner. She took the call in the back of the restaurant. All of a sudden she was jumping up and down, and crying. All eyes were on her. When she got off the phone she started screaming... "we are having a baby! we are having a baby! I'm going to be a grandmother! we are having a baby." Everyone in the whole place was so happy for her... except me. What is wrong with me???? It was ridiculous. I wanted to get up and leave. Seriously... not because I was mad, I was just upset and I didn't want anyone to notice. The tears started to come... and I told Andrew to change the subject. I started digging in my purse... for nothing. I just had to keep my head down and let it pass. It was horrible. I was so embarrassed. I didn't know what to do. I feel like such a jerk.. why can't I just be happy for this complete stranger!
I am starting to worry that this will be my life. Forever longing...
5 comments:
I randomly came across your website and felt the need to comment. Although I don't know you, your words speak volumes about your kind, compassionate and loving demeanor.
God loves you and Andrew, he has something special planned for the two of you, who knows what that will be. Find courage in his words and trust in him. There is a reason for everything.
Ugh. I am so, so sorry.
:( stay strong.
Oh Suzanne! Your post made we want to cry! I have a friend who had a hard time getting pregnant but had a child and now she has been trying for 2 years to have another with no success and it's hard for her to get excited about her own friends and family members having kids. I know miracles can happen, I know God does not leave us alone in our challenges and I know that you and others like you are in my thoughts and prayers. Love you!
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